Your words hit me like a thousand bricks crushing my body
The weight of the bricks force me down
closer and closer to the ground
Till i finally fall to my knees and i swear i give up
I fix the mistakes you say i make
and it's still not good enough
to make the whispering and bad mouthing stop
Your stares that were once so warm and inviting
are now so jagged and sharp they could cut right through me
stares like I'm not good enough or that i have no dignity
so you treat me like the dirt you walk on and have no remorse
so what if I'm the mother of your child, I'm still not good enough
to deserve your respect.
Your ignorant comments leave hideous marks on my heart
like a tattoo done by an amateur
time makes it fade but the damage is already done
I must capture the affirmative words my loved ones give me
to create a cover up for the horrid mistake i made in my adolescents
The way you bring me down makes the person i am disappear
the people who once said hello as they walked on by, now don't know I'm even here
Everywhere i go i carry a shield to protect me from the next malicious thing
you decide to throw at me as if it were a bomb.
You know just what to say to bring me to tears
and you use that to your advantage
To win this war you seem to think we're in
But a battle can only be won if you have a fair opponent
and righteousness is not a personal trait you possess.
Who do you think you are, asking all around
who I'm with, what I'm doing, and where i can be found
what does it matter to you?
Who do you think you are, running around cutting deep into wounds that just healed.
It took so long just to feel alright
to bring back the light in my life
I wished i had missed the first time we ever kissed
to save me from the tribulation i suffer from today.
your dark and bitter heart
left you with even a colder soul
not even the warmest day here in Arizona
could make that ice go away
You won't be able to tear me down forever
Trust me there will come a day
when i wont even care to listen to the stupid shit to have to say
I know i have the strength to conquer all
It would just be easier to move up
without having to slip and fall
practice makes perfect and believe me i wont give up
no matter how many times i start on the ground and have to work my way back up.
