Paranormal Activity

 FAIR WARNING!! IF YOU  HAVEN'T SEEN THE MOVIE AND YOU DON'T WANT ME TO TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENS... DON'T READ THIS BLOG!!




WOW!!  This had to be the scariest movie ever!!!  
I don't think i put my feet on the ground once during the whole movie. I promised myself i wouldn't see it in theatres cuz i knew i would freak myself out... and of course that didn't happen. 




Beth wanted to so we did.... and what does this hoochie do.. falls asleep!!! no joke haha. I'm buried behind my hands peeking through my fingers and her niece Jordan whispers omg! Beth is sleeping!!  lol until the cabinets go flying open.... then Beth was wide awake haha.

I think the thing that freaked me out most about this movie was the fact that the demon was after the baby boy... i mean c'mon seriously!! its a freaking  baby.


I think the scariest part was when the mom was all possessed by that damn thing. oh!! and when the demon was making the baby lift out of the crib.... no joke i started crying i was soooo scared for that baby. Then to top it off the freaking aunt comes back and takes the baby..... now its missing and is probably all evil!!! haha surprisingly i slept okay last night... but it could have been that it was like 3am before we even got home and i was exhausted so... ill let you know i sleep tonight haha. 

Positive Quotes about life # 2

Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable

- Dr. Joyce Brothers

WOW! I couldn't agree more.

this quote actually left me starring at the screen putting its meaning into perspective.

You have to allow yourself to be vulnerable in order to fall in love. 

The quote says .. dare to reveal yourself fully. that's exactly what it is. Its a dare. You DON'T know how things will turn out, but when your ready to take the risk that's when you can truly love someone. 

I think girls.. maybe not so much anymore now that were getting older... but we try to fit this image of what the guy likes. Meaning he says "oh I'm a die hard hockey fan... what about you??" and you reply " omg!!! hockey is my favorite sport" even though you have no idea if they use a puck or a ball. and i know you girls now what I'm talking about cuz we all HAVE done it.... at least once.

Already.... your not revealing yourself fully. yeah yeah yeah so what we barely know each other right? lol well, i guess till it blows up in your face a few months down the road and you guys are at a hockey game and your bored out of your mind cuz you have no idea what the hell is going on... again been there done that.. learned my lesson!! hahaha ( except it was racing.. not hockey)

Love is going to come when the manipulation stops. When you stop pretending to be this person your not. Two people don't have to agree on EVERYTHING.... its more fun that way.. it keeps life interesting. 

True beauty lies within yourself... let that beauty shine through and don't wear the mask.... take that risk and dare to be vulnerable .... that's when love will come. 

Postive Quotes about Life #1

For the past couple of weeks i have been receiving emails giving me positive quotes about life. Where they came from i have no idea, but these quotes have helped me keep my head above water through this rough patch. 

Trust your hopes, not your fears

-David Mahoney

Easier said than done in my opinion. I mean I'm not saying its impossible, however i always find myself pouring all my energy into making sure my fears don't become reality. It's really hard for me to sit back and "Hope" that things work out the way they're supposed to. 

  I have always been the type of person who has

an answer for everything. I always had a pretty 

good idea of how things would turn out, and for

once ... I'm completely stumped. 

I always told myself that i would never be a 

single mom, and that i would never make my children have to

live life going back and forth between houses. It was never 

something i personally had to deal with, but i knew 

it wasn't something i wanted to my children.

So because of this... I stayed.  I stayed in an unhealthy relationship, that broke me down more and more everyday. I stayed because i wanted the best for my son. I wanted to give him the life that in today's world is looked at as almost a luxury. Two parents together, under one roof  who love each other unconditionally and plan to spend the rest of their lives together. However our relationship was the complete opposite. Cold and bitter. Almost depressing. But i had "Hope". Hope that things would get better and i could give my son the life i wanted for him. 

After awhile i decided my fear HAD to become 

reality. Staying in that relationship and putting 

my son through all of that arguing and fighting 

was doing more harm than good. Ya, we all lived

under one roof and we all saw each other everyday... 

but he was miserable, I was miserable. my fathers son 

sat me down told me i wasn't what he wanted and instead 

of fighting for what little bit I knew we had left 

(or "HOPED" we had left) I let it go. I said ok. 

Now... i had to get a new game plan.

Being as stubborn and hard headed as i am... giving up was extremely hard to do. I felt like a failure. I was scared my son was going to grow up and hold this over my head because his father and i couldn't make it work as a couple. I want to be a hero and a role model for my son. i want him to look up to me and aspire to have some of the same genuine qualities i have. I've lost a lot of sleep over this decision "Hoping" that this was and is the right choice for my son, and "Fear" that he will never understand why his father and i decided to split.

So, now all I'm left with is hope. "Hope" that god will bring me that one person who I'm meant to have a family with and grow old with. "Hope" that some good can come from all this heartache. "Hope" that i can still give my son the life i want him to have, just gotta make a few minor adjustments along the way. Then i have my fears. "Fear" that even if i do find someone... it will turn out like it did before."Fear" that no good will come from this decision and all ill be left with is regret."Fear" that my son will never be able to have the life i dreamed of him having, just one we had to substitute for because of decision his father and i made.

and in the end my fears... have become reality.

 

 

Partners in Crime

Bethany's boyfriend turned 18 today...... Happy Birthday David!! 
So of course, being the girls we are........ we decided to do some damage!!! 


Anyone who knows me well, knows that when it comes  to surprises... i suck at keeping my mouth shut!! ( SHUT UP BETH AND CORT, I ALREADY KNOW WHAT YOUR ABOUT TO SAY!!) But, somehow i managed to do it. yesterday Beth and i went and got all the supplies. Were gunna decorate his entire truck with birthday decorations and COVER it in silly string!! ( nothing evil... but still ... it gets your adrenaline pumping!!)


FAST FORWARD...... MIDNIGHT!!!


Omg!! this kid is still here? .... i was thinking..... he has school in the morning and his mom hasn't even called to ask where he was or when he would be home? this is crazy..... 2 seconds later David got a text... " you coming home soon?" thank god mother!!! haha its getting late and this kid needs to get home so WE can have some fun! about 30 minutes later he finally leaves.


"Okay guys, we gotta figure out how were gunna do this  because we ALL have problems being quiet" Beth said. so we sat there for a minute and figured out our game plan.  First thing we had to do.... KEEP OUR DAMN MOUTHS SHUT!!


Alright, were in the car and we start opening everything. Bethany is stuffing confetti into her hoodie and I'm shoving banners, tape, more confetti, window paint, silly string, and window markers into my little tiny jacket lol..... how the hell are we gunna carry all of this up there!! Cort was in charge of the streamers so, she  was  prepping everything getting it ready to go. 


i On our way over we  all agreed our adrenaline was pumpin!!! " Man, i hate when that happens cuz it makes me have to pee!!!" i said. " YOU JUST WENT!!" yelled Cort!! " I know but I'm excited and i know I'm gunna burst out laughing then what?? I'm gunna be running back to the car with wet pants from laughing soo hard!!" " OH GOD" Cort replied.  "Dude, this kid is still awake" Beth said... lol " what if he hears us??" "how the hell are we gunna do this if he is still awake?" i said. " I'll just keep texting him so he doesn't suspect anything, but ill wait in between texts so hopefully while he is waiting for me to reply he will crash out" haha Beth your dumb ass thinking!!

"HOLY CRAP GUYS... IS SOMEONE OUT THERE?!?" haha Bethany said. at that point i knew our imaginations were getting the best of us.  not even 5 minutes later we were getting out of Beth's car and sneaking up to his truck!

aww man, these rocks are so loud i thought as i went up to the front to put the HUGE party hat on his antenna. i literally NO JOKE was there for what seemed like an hr trying to tie that thing up. finally i was done , onto the banner.

WTF!?!?! how i am supposed to get in the back of the truck to tape this banner when there is a couch back here... lol so didn't expect that. but i made it work. As i was trying to hang up the banner i get shot with silly string!!! ... god dammit Beth!!!! and your the one who told me to shut up and not laugh.......... BITCH!!!!

After all that excitement.. we still managed to go back 2 more times... once to hang the other banner up... (that we put on BACKWARDS!!!!) haha and again to take pictures.

However i was kinda looking forward to dressing up in a sexy black outfit and putting the black lines under my eyes... just to make things more interesting.... but there will be plenty more opportunities for that.

So this morning, after only 4 hrs of sleep, I'm up again... and for what??? more David surprises!!! time to go get a shit load of balloons and deliver them to school... were i especially told Becky ( You know I'm talking about... sweet Becky who works in attendance.. god i Love that lady) to make sure he HAS to carry them around all day!!! 

So David, Happy 18th Birthday ...... 

ALCOHOL,GYM,SWEAT!!

SO BETHANY, CORTNEY, AND I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT TRYING TO GET BACK TO OUR HIGH SCHOOL BODIES.... UNFORTUNATELY, ITS HARDER THAN WE THOUGHT.

WE STARTED THE NIGHT WITH SOME STRAWBERRY MAGARITAS. SO MUCH FOR BETHS NO ALCOHOL PLAN. THEN OF COURSE BEING ME I NOTICED SOME PIZZA ON THE COUNTER. SO I GRABBED A PIECE, ALONG WITH SOME CHEESY BREAD... HAHA NEEDLESS TO SAY BY THE TIME WE ACTUALLY LEFT FOR THE GYM.... I WAS FEELING PRETTY GOOD!!!

FIRST THING WE DO WHEN WE GET TO THE GYM IS WEIGH OURSELVES. LOL WE ALL AGREE THAT THE SCALE HAS TO BE WRONG!

OKAY... THE ELIPITCAL!! ALL THE STARS DO IT FOR LIKE 45 MINUTES , THIS HAS TO BE A PIECE OF CAKE... WRONG!!!! WERE ON IT FOR 3 MINUTES AND WE CAN ALL FEEL THE BURN, DAMN! THIS IS INTENSE. "CORT GO GRAB MY PHONE.. MAYBE TEXTING WILL TAKE MY MIND OFF THE PAIN" .. AFTER BEGGING CORT TO GET MY PHONE SHE FINALLY DID, AND OF COURSE ONCE I HAVE MY PHONE.. NO ONE TEXTED ME.

ON TO THE BIKES.... MUCH MUCH EASIER. I WAS HAVIN FUN JUST PEDALING AND READING MY MAGAZINE .. I LOOK DOWN "WOW IVE BURNED 25 WHOLE CALORIES" I SAID SARCASTICALLY. "WAIT HOW DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY YOU'VE BURNED..." YEP THATS CORT!! SO I EXPLAINED TO HER HOW TO FIND OUT.

"OMG!! I HAVE BURNED.... 2 CALORIES!!!" HAHAHA PRICELESS!!! 

AFTER THE BIKES BETHANYS BOYFIREND DAVID HELPED ME DO SOME AB WORK-OUTS, AND TRUST ME HE WILL GET HIS PAY BACK!! LOL I WAS WORKING MY ASS OFF AND IN SO MUCH PAIN WHEN I FINALLY NOTICED BETH AND CORT SITTING ON THIER ASSES WATCHING ME!! LOL

BEFORE WE LEFT, I HAD TO WEIGH MYSELF AGAIN... THIER WAS NO WAY I WAS THE SAME WEIGHT AS BEFORE I WALKED IN.... AFTER ALL THAT I HAD TO HAVE LOST AT LEAST A POUND! WELL..... I DIDNT WEIGH THE SAME.... I WEIGHED MORE!!

WTF?!?! " ITS ALL THE SWEAT IN YOUR HAIR" DAVID SAID...... THATS FUCKING SICK!!!

NOW WERE BACK AT HOUSE, AND WERE EATING... OF COURSE!!! I CANNOT LAUGH WITHOUT BEING IN PAIN!!

Living with "THE PARENTALS"

Life lesson number 1 : Once you move out of your parents house.......DONT move back!! 

Apparently i didn't receive this memo. Well, i did but unfortunately "life" happened and i really had no other option. so here i am in "HELL" no joke. This household has made me lose my sanity, ALL OF IT!! It was different when i lived on my own, visiting the family was tolerable and when it wasn't i could leave... now the farthest i get from them is 50 feet ( If I'm lucky). 

I feel like I'm 13 again, when i thought it was cool to put a "keep out" sign on my door. However, i don't feel cool but trust me i have considered the idea. lol 

Then you have the whole computer issue. My sis wants the computer in her room so whenever i want to get online i  have to be prepared for war! But whats so funny is when she is upset she will either blow up in my face or run straight to my mom and tell her... then here comes my cute Lil mom... " ummm Erin, kelli needs to do some homework on the computer so your gunna have to get off now" she says trying to be as nice as possible.  swear to god 30 minutes later this bitch is on her facebook and hasn't even started her homework.

So, i JUST decided ( literally like 30 seconds ago) I gotta get my own computer... then ill have everything in my room. the only reason i would ever have to come out is to use the bathroom and eat. Perfect plan!  Well, at least till i get my own place...... 

Where is your belly button??

So, lately i have been trying to get my son familiar with his body parts. The only one that seems to stick with him is his belly button. Why i have no idea, but he is so adorable, when i ask him where its at....... he stops lifts up his shirt and says " BUTTON" haha.

However.... now if i ask him where his belly button is, he walks up to me, lifts up MY shirt and pokes at my belly button till i laugh!! i feel like im the pilsbury dough boy or something but he loves it so if i have to act like a dumbass, then thats what i got to do haha.

Now, if only we could move onto something other than his belly button.... haha  he has his nose down for the most part. if i ask him where its at he grabs it and snorts like a little piggy haha! His eyes he knows but if i ask him where his eys are he automatically thinks were playing peek-a-boo. he loves peek -a-boo. No joke this kid will play with you for 15 or 20 straight minutes and laugh harder everytime you act suprised that you see him haha.

My son as also discovered his "PEE" as he calls it. If im changing his diaper you better be ready to hear "pee" and him quickly point to it so show you its there lol .  time and time again you will find him taking off his pants and removing his diaper all so he can show you his "pee." Bath time is dedicated to his pee. you give him his little "soap buddie"(The most amazing thing ever invented for toddlers... and its smells awesome) and its straight to the pee... in his opinion nothing else needs to be clean apparently haha so in between the toes and behind the ears... thats left up to me.

My Lil Man

  I just turned 18 and had started college two weeks prior to peeing on that little plastic stick that at the time i thought was no big deal just another false alarm. Oh how i was wrong. Pregnant at 18... ha this was gunna be a fun one to explain to the parents.... and suprisingly they took the news way better than expected. 

Fast Forward - Day i Went into Labor : March 27 2009

I went to lunch with Bethany at the Olive Garden. One of our old co- workers was bragging saying how he was going to school fro massage therapy so i told him to put me into labor, he started rubbing this certain spot on my foot, but nothing happened. Later that day i went over to my ex's sisters house. she had just had her daughter 2 weekes prior. We were hanging out and i noticed my pants were started to get wet. not sure of what it could be i made up some excuse that i had to leave. lol my water was leaking and for some reason all i could think about was omg am i so pregnant that i dont even know when i have to pee now!?!?  12 hrs later my beautiful baby boy was born.

                                            Matthew Leland Morrow Jr.

                                        Born March 28,2009 at 7:15am

                                               7lbs, 2oz and 20in long

From that day to now, my life has changed dramactically. I found deep inside of myself a passion that i never knew i had before. A passion for being a mother. My ability to love was taken to new heights the first time i held my son. How could you love such a little thing sooo much, was just remarkable to me. In the past two years I've had doors open, but also many doors close. There have been times where i just wanted to give up, but then that boy comes running to me with those sparkling blue eyes and that big gorgeous smile, and my life has purpose again. My son is my rock and i thank god everyday that he is in my life. I was criticized daily for being a teen mom, but i think that if my son wasnt in my life right now i wouldn't have become the woman i am today. I love you bubba. <3

hmm... is this how this thing works??

So.... lately I've been trying to find ways to "release" whatever issues i may be dealing with good or bad. Someone recommended this blogging thing... so here i am :)... but i cant seem to figure it out just yet haha. I think i even created like two accounts on accident! haha oh well soon enough i'll figure it out, then you probably wont get me off this thing lol. 

* More to come i promise... i just gotta figure this thing out first ;)