I ache for a want that i feel i need. A want that leaves me empty. A want that wants nothing in return. A want with a story that can't be told. A want with an obstacle its not ready to overcome.
So, here i am still needing this want and wanting this need. The need that promised me nothing in the beginning but now i want to promise me everything. This need i am territorial over, this need i won't let go of. A need that gives me a whole slew of emotions i am not even able to sort out. Content and blissful. Bitter and confused. Emotions so real, emotions so fake. Highs and lows day to day, this whirlwind has to come to an end.
An ultimatum that will make a definite decision. A decision i know i wont be okay with. The want came into it wanting nothing and will leave needing nothing. The want stayed emotionless, not thinking too much into the situation. A smart move i probably should have played. Sitting on this cloud of hope, hoping for the best. Waiting for those hopes to turn into fears. Fears that will make me feel more alone than i do at this exact moment. Inevitably i will sit here and watch it all unwind.Waiting till its to late to escape and I'm left with a gaping hole in my heart. Still wanting the need. The need that needs no one and wants nothing.The time bomb is ticking louder and louder..
Tick.. Tick.. Tick..
