"Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same."
~Francesca Reigler
~Francesca Reigler
The past 2 months or so has been VERY difficult for me. I have days where i can be smiling one minute and balling my eyes out the next... its kind of exhausting.
Believe me the first couple days were pure torture.... i went through TONS of tissues. Thankfully they were the puffs plus lotion otherwise i would have looked like Rudolph in September. haha
I had an endless amount of Chocolate Ice Cream.. that i swear I'm still working off to this day!! But gosh.. when your down that's the one thing that can brighten your day... even if its only for a little while.
and I had all my favorite Chick flicks that i knew were only going to make me cry harder because they all got the guy in the end, but i still had them, and i watched them OVER AND OVER!!!
Its funny how our minds work like that. We know we don't want to feel sad and we want to be cheerful and happy again as quickly as possible
But then here we are moping around
and feeling sorry for ourselves cuz
at the time that's the only thing you
want or even care to do.
That's the first thing i thought of when i read this quote. "DAMN, i put soo much energy into being sad and depressed." All of that energy could have been applied somewhere else, and i could have been happy... A LOT sooner.
We all have our own ways of dealing with the all the bullshit life decides to throw at us... maybe i did need those few days to lay around and soak up my sorrow.. maybe i didn't.
All i know is now i am the happiest I've been in a long time. I may not have everything i want out of life, but at this exact moment.... i have everything i need. All those wants will come later, and even though I'm probably the most impatient person you will ever meet...Ill wait for them. I will never be able to appreciate the little things out of life if I'm too busy hunting down the big ones...
So, that's my goal.. to put my energy into the positive aspects of my life, My son, My family, My friends. All the Negative aspects of my life: THEY DON'T MATTER!!! they will find a way to disappear on their own... it may take time, but I'm not gunna wait around. I'm gunna live my life and enjoy all the blessings god has giving me.
